I'm getting back into the habit of putting myself out there as an artist. It's one of those skills that will atrophy from disuse, and I'm afraid my marketing/self-promotional muscle is as flaccid and doughy as Jabba's tail.
So when I saw the open call for Juxtapoz' ninth annual 'Surreal Salon' I was unmotivated to say the least. $30 just to submit images of up to three artworks seemed like a mean way of taunting starving artists. But it's funny how things can turn from a 'no way' into a 'why not...'
Maybe it's just because I'm getting older, but over the years I've come to realize just how much time and effort these deliberations can (and should) take. And considering the popularity of Juxtapoz, I also understand that a free process would completely overwhelm the jury with submissions. This sort of justification was only going one direction. I'm not exactly a starving artist anymore, so I couldn't use that excuse. And... damn, haven't I made some art that I'm actually happy with recently? I might just have the perfect entry...' The thoughts kept coming.
So with a complete lack of enthusiasm but enough certitude to believe I wasn't just throwing my money away, I bought the ticket.
Still deciding if I'm going to take the ride and go to Baton Rouge later this month.